April 11, 2003

  • So tired....


    We have not been dealing with the time change very well.  Stayed up WAY too late last night, and then up early this morning.  Now it's after 10pm, and we are still up!  ACK!  I could lay down and sleep right now, but for some reason, I have this compulsion to stay awake....can't explain it.  Except that I was going to finish two projects tonight and get started on another one.  I decided not to sand my kitchen cabinet before painting them.  I tested it out, and it seems to be working just fine.  GREAT!  Sanding is a huge pain the butt, it turns out!  I'd just as soon avoid it if at all possible.  Today I made Pita bread (16!!) a loaf of whole wheat bread (bread maker), a big batch of tabouli, hummus, iced tea, cut out pieces for a few pillows, played computer games with my son for about an hour and a half, cleaned up my ketch, took out the trash, went to the grocery store.......why am I tired again?


    My partner called from Cape Canaveral last night at two in the morning, which mean 5am his time.  He's having a hard time sleeping, too.  I figure, just as soon as we all get it worked out, he'll come home and we'll be all screwed up again! Ha!  He's doing good, working on the Cruise ship.  He plays piano.  Such a life...he works every day, I think he's had, like NO days off in the last two weeks.  And he's not due for one until a week and a half from now, either.  But then you find out that he's only working about 1 1/2 hours a night, and you don't feel so bad for him.  Out there in the Bahaman's slaving away!  We miss him!  I'm sure he gets more rest out at sea than he does at home.  I know I  would!  In fact I know I got more sleep when I was working full time than I do now that I'm staying home full time.  How does that work? 


    I've been reading a book called Ourselves As Mothers by sheila kitzinger. she has some interesting ideas about our culture and being a mother.  Although I agree with much of what she says (mothers are not given the respect that men and women who have careers are given and other things...read the book) she kind of makes Mothers as a group sound like we are all abused and deprived of social activity, pathetic and haggard, as though we never sleep and can't find time to shower.  I suppose SOME of the time that is true, but my gosh, I really enjoy staying home with my son.  I guess I don't think that the way to win respect is to complain about the choices that we've made.  We just have to find new ways to deal with them.  Admittedly, I'm only about one and a half chapters into it, so, sorry Sheila, if I've made a snap judgement about the way you view mothers.  


    But today, I AM tired..... 

jessiegrrrl

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